I would confidently say I am a good arguer. I had a lot of practice as a kid. But once I got to uni I kind of stopped. That was until God blessed me with best friends. As I often have a perspective of knowing when someone is struggling, I know the best way to hurt them, and especially when I get hurt I can often cut to the heart of a person. Which I am not proud of, but I used to pride myself on it. I used to think it was okay to do that. When I became a Christian my life dramatically stabled out (oxymoron). But now a year down the line, I have realised one of my problems is that I am a prisoner of my past.
I recently had an argument with one of my best friends, what was the gist of it? My past was influencing my present, the bitterness and resentment that I felt towards people in my past were seeping into my present. And if I’m not careful could easily impact my future.
Because the disagreement I had with my friend wasn’t because I was angry at him. It wasn’t even my depression that was causing it. It was the chains of my past.
But the problem is that as I am fully redeemed my Christ I don’t have any chains. The devil, the lies, and my own sinfulness are causing me to try and put the chains back on myself. Which is ridiculous mainly because what prisoner who has been freed wants to put the chains back on?
I need to remember the freedom I have in Christ. Because I am free in him I am not bound by my past mistakes, I am free to fully forgive as I have been fully forgiven.