The suffocating silence

What do you do when you feel alone. Even physically surrounded why I write this, inside I feel so alone. 

The silence, tears, and heartache is suffocating me. Like God is draining all of the oxygen out of my lungs. The things that used to be so life-giving is now breaking me, friends, writing, even Jesus. 

Every time I think of him, pray to him, listen to worship music, read the bible, I cry. Because my soul is hurting right now, the pain inside of me is so so great that only he can help. 

And I know, I’m describing what someone out there feels. Trust me, it sucks. But what scripture can start to heal our broken souls. 

He is near to the brokenhearted, he is listening, he loves us more than you will ever know, he has a purpose, you are not alone, you are not unredeemable. 

When you are on the floor, you have two options. You can face the floor and ignore truth or you can roll over and face the lord and allow him to heal you bit by bit. 

I don’t know why God is allowing my heartache just as much as I don’t know why he is allowing yours. 

But he is good. How can a good God allow this pain? 

We live in a sinful and broken world, we live in a world broken from the fall, I need a saviour now more than ever. I need Jesus, to meet me in the pain. And he does. 

He will give us rest for our souls. This doesn’t mean that he will give us what we want. But he always gives us what we need. And more importantly, he gives us him. He is our best deepest friend. He wants us to know him deeply. We do this primarily by reading his word, reading truth and by talking to him. About your pain, and heartache.  

Author: beforeiunderstood

I am 20, born and bread in the UK, I am a Christian trying to live my life for the glory of God. Battling through mental illness and life in general. With the goal of trying to make other's feel less alone.

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